Whatever it takes...That's exactly what I'm doing. I can't believe I've been living this new lifestyle for more than 60 days now. Let me be honest with you, it hasn't been easy. Like I keep saying, it's not always easy, it's always worth it.
Some days I feel like I'm on cloud 9. On those days, I look in the mirror and I feel so confident. I see major changes happening to my body. I'm slowly getting abs and it feels so cool! I feel like I can conquer anything on those days.
Other days, I feel like I'm sinking. I look in the mirror and I see thin, frizzy hair. I see a wrinkle on my forehead. I see cellulite that still hasn't disappeared. I feel defeated. I wish I was thinner. I wish my muscles were showing faster. I want to crawl into a corner and cry.
Change doesn't happen instantly. Growth doesn't happen instantly. Success doesn't happen instantly. It's all about the process. Never stop fighting. Never stop trying. Never, ever give up.
I have to keep reminding myself this every single day. I've struggled immensely with body image for the majority of my life. I battled anorexia and bulimia all through high school. I never felt good enough then and I still don't feel good enough today.
But what does that even mean? Who or what am I not good enough for? I have to stop comparing myself to others. Not one person is alike. We all have different goals. We all have different strengths and different weaknesses. That doesn't mean were less worthy or less special. The biggest thing to remember is this: nothing changes if nothing changes. If you don't like something, stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop complaining, and do something about it!
Training for Musclemania Colorado has given me new life. It has given me confidence where I had none. It has given me passion. It has given me fight. It has brought me from a spot where I didn't care about myself or who I was becoming to a place where I feel like my dreams really can become reality. It has given me a fresh perspective on life.
If you're looking for some inspiration, here's my advice: set little goals and work insanely hard for them! Goals take time, discipline and 100% commitment. You can't give up when you don't see results!